The door is closing and you are sad

Life is a funny thing, one minute everything is great then you feel the winds shift. Surely this is not my life’s plan.How do you pick yourself back up when a door closes in your face on your favorite dream?Image result for inspirational memes

How true is this? Would we ever appreciate the light if there was no dark (no disappointments)

For me life has been confusing lately, do I stay, do I go, am I making the right decisions for my lil one… But I have a friend who is going through much worse and my heart hurts for that situation. My prayer is, that although you feel like the door is closing and the dark is settling in, DON’T GIVE UP! I know that it is sometimes hard to find your way back but do not give up because someone is waiting for you. (friend, family loved ones, etc) I will be here for you, always.

In the end, when you see the light you will know that everything was as it was supposed to be. So chin up, Baby Girl, be the storm! If you need help, I got you. lol  I have no trouble being the storm. You are strong, intelligent, talented, beautiful daughter to The King, and I am blessed to call YOU friend!

#betheStorm

Could you sacrifice it all for true love?

That’s kind of a heavy question for a romantic at heart, but lets explore this concept just a bit more. I recently re-watched all of the Star Wars movies, and I couldn’t help but think that most of the trouble was caused by people that thought people should just fall in line with little to no explanation. (Side note if you are training, mentoring someone and they ask you a question it is YOUR JOB to answer them. If not someone else just might and the results could be catastrophic.)

The first movies (1-3) tell the story of a boy who did not grow up in the ways of the Jedi’s but they were pretty sure he would be the one to restore balance to the force. He meets his true love but they were forbidden to marry. Anakin decides to risk it ALL of love, setting into motion events that no one sees coming. (Darth Vader is born, arguably one of the BEST villains ever) He looses everything: Padme, his children, and his grandchildren are even now affected by his decision. My question is what would you risk for true love?

In a day where people fall in and out of love like they change their clothes, giving your all seems like a thing of days past.

For the sake of argument, lets say you met THE ONE. I mean toe curling can’t breathe without them love. Then someone tells you, you can’t be with them, could you walk away and leave them and sacrifice your happiness? I wonder if Anakin knew what would happen, the devastation he would cause, if he would still make the same decision.

I will tell you I consider myself a pretty strong woman, but I do not see myself walking away for any reason other than my son…

 

Motivation: What keeps you going?

For the last two years I have been on a quest to get back to being more healthy. I am a single mom with a very active lil boy and need to be the best I can be for him and me! This is me right before I started this journey. 

I was about 55 lbs overweight, facing  back and wrist surgery. I ate nothing healthy. I knew the time had come to do things differently. So July 4, 2016 I put down Dr. Pepper for good… (I went from drinking 6-8 a day to none and started a healthier diet) I made it a point to NOT cheat the first six months. This is different for everyone, but I knew if I cheated I would not have the willpower to stop.  I was doing no workouts at this point either. December of 2016 I had lost 30 pounds but I still had 25 to go. It was time to get really serious. I hired a trainer.

This route is not for everyone, but I found having to answer to someone and send my measurements to him was a HUGE motivator. (I will find a pic to put here just for yall) January 2017, I had joined his six week program. I had forgotten just how much I LOVED the working out. I loved the feel of my muscles being sore. Six weeks flew by. At the end i had lost three inches and was well on my way to loosing the last of my weight.  I tried to make it on my own, I really did.  I ended up messaging him and asking about longer term programs. Having a trainer keeps me grounded, motivated and focused on what I should be doing.

Around April I met another  fitness junkie. I know what you are thinking, what happened to D? Nothing, I kept him, while I started incorporating MORE stuff from my new friend and the results were amazing! I found that he challenged me to do things that I normally would not have even attempted to do. I have NO quit in me when someone challenges me! (I may have fussed a lil though) In all my years I can say that I loved the way I felt and looked during this time the best. I could not have been more excited about my new muscle definition. (Pics of my baby shoulders) 

October- December 2017 was when I got a lil sideways (so if this happens to you don’t panic you can get it back!) I spent these months BUSY with family holidays and only occasionally did I hit my downstairs gym. I will say that getting back in the groove is the hardest part but now two weeks into January it feels like I haven’t left!

The question I get asked the most is, well what’s your goal? I don’t know if I have just one… I want to reach for the stars and never look back. Size matters not to me, I mainly try to focus on how I feel at the end of the day and can I keep up with my four year old! My goal is too motivate people the way my friends motivate me! My advice to you is NEVER give up. Start small and move from there. Need help? There’s no shame in that either. There are a lot of programs out there that you can do alone or online trainers that will help you, because I know better than most how intimidating “going to a gym” can be!

Twilight Before Christmas by Christine Feehan

Seven sisters…and a legacy of magical secrets.
Bestselling novelist Kate Drake is one of seven sisters gifted with amazing powers of witchcraft. Returning home in time for her northern California town’s annual Christmas pageant, Kate catches the spirit of the season and decides to open a bookstore in a charming but run-down historic mill. Decorated former U.S. Army Ranger Matt Granite, now a local contractor, doesn’t mind working in the undeniably eerie house — not if it means getting closer to Kate. There’s something about the quiet, sensual woman that powerfully attracts him.
When an earthquake cracks the mill’s foundation and reveals a burial crypt, Kate senses that a centuries-old evil has been unleashed and that it’s coming after her. Though Matt vows to guard her from dusk till dawn, Kate knows she will have to summon all of her and her sisters’ powers to battle the darkness threatening to destroy both Christmas and the gift of soul-searing passion her hometown hero wants her to keep forever….

This book is not a new book but one of my absolute fav reads to reread. Book 2 in the series of 7 sisters (the first one is good just not one I have reread) Matt and Kate take you on a journey of new love, intrigue, and a trip to shadow worlds in a battle of redemption and forgiveness.

Once you pick up these sisters you will not be able to put them down!

5 stars from me

Past adventures that led to the time of my life

Music! I can NOT live my life without music. There is a song for literally everything no matter what you have going on in your life.  For as long as I can remember I have LOVED to sing. I doesn’t seem to matter what kind of music I am singing either.  (so much so that half the time I don’t even know I am doing it)

When I was 22, I saw an ad in the paper about coming to Nashville and auditioning for a record deal. Ha I mean why not? I was single no kids. SO off I go with my mom, curlers in my hair to sit in a room for 7 hours! Listening to people singing their hearts just waiting for my turn. I have never experienced anything like it. Intimidated. I mean  what did I have that they would want? Excited. The most people I had ever sang in front of was church lol. I sang. This is where I met Mrs. Mary Robbin (but we will talk about her later on) I just KNEW this would change my life forever, and in a way I guess it really did. I won a partial contract and that’s where our story will begin!

My poor momma went with me every other week  to Nashville. Voice lessons with Mary Robbin, she was a bundle of life and laughed at everything. She had an amazing life story but that is for another post.

It took three months of planning to actually get to the recording date. I was given 60 songs to go through to pick out my ten. I mean that should be plenty right? I came up with seven that I wanted, but couldn’t settle on the last three. That’s when Mrs. Mary Robbin brought me three songs her husband had written. I was absolutely in love with them! It took a week of recordings, to get all ten tracks. I will never forget Randy (the best sound man), I swear he never lost his patience with me and believe he could have. During the day, we had photo shoots, video shooting, auditions, and shopping. At night, I would sing till I had nothing left to give Randy. (ha there MAYBE still some of those videos floating around)

Next came getting to sing at the Stardust for a small showcase. I was a lil less scared about this one. Surrounded by my family and several of my friends, man I thought I was already famous. Standing backstage waiting to hear my name, the people cheering, the bright lights,  music starts deep breath, THAT feeling! I sang Sylvia “Nobody”. I was doing it living the dream. Or so I thought…

Working full time at the salon, still going to Nashville every other week and now its Christmas Eve. I was outside with my fellow friends when my past rolled up… lol Can I just take a minute and say everything happens for a reason and if you can’t make it work the first time, chances are that it probably won’t work the next time. It seemed innocent enough he just wanted to wish me Merry Christmas and congrats on the new career. One thing lead to another and we got back together.

Four months Mrs. Mary called to tell me there was a showcase I had been invited to where Mercury Records would be attending. I was beyond excited. Love. Career. Wasn’t my life progressing exactly as it was supposed to? A  week before the “big day” I drive to Mark’s house, where he met me and PROPOSED! SO I was getting married. I went to sing, got a call back for six months.  I could not wait to get back and tell him how it went (see the first red flag is he wasn’t there). He said he was so proud! That night we talked of the future: wedding, house, kids the whole nine yards.But this is where the narrative changed, If I wanted to continue this path that we of course would have to wait to get married (sec red flag) BUT he was quick to tell me supported me whatever I decided.

I made the decision to take a “break” to get married. Now that I am grown I am not sure what my decision would be when presented with the question. What I can say is now no matter how old I get I will always look back on these days with a fondness and say  WHAT A RIDE I HAD…

Relationship Goals

When you were younger did you plan your future? Always know what you wanted to be? What did that look like for you?

I remember as a little girl looking forward to a time when I would meet someone, fall in love and be together forever… (I just knew I was gonna marry Luke Skywalker)

Then I became a teenager and that changed a lil bit 🤣 the only thing that stayed consistent was the thought of being excited to have my very own family a man that loved me a house full of kids and a soccer mom van.

About a month before i got married, I saw a young couple walking in the aisle together heads bent giggling about something. Pushing my buggy past I remember thinking, I can not wait to get to do that with my husband. Before you call me naive for thinking that all couples go to the store together all the time, I know life happens. How amazing though, to be so in love that doing the little stuff together matters.

Now that I’m grown, I am still drawn to watching couples at the store or sitting together at a restaurant. My grandparents sat side by side at the cafe with his arm around her (and my grandpa was the BEST) and when walking together, he made sure he was close for what he called just in case. (Which I can appreciate now because I’m a total klutz)

I guess my point is this, if you are lucky enough to be in love with a great person take time to the little things (go to Walmart, hold their hands, sit in the rockers at Cracker Barrel, laugh like no one is watching) Because let’s face it there a million people who would gladly trade places with you. Treat each day like a gift instead of a chore. Share an adventure, even if it’s just on the front porch!

SEAL the Deal by Kate Aster

Take one desperate real estate agent… add a Navy SEAL who radiates sex through his pores… toss in a corpse, a pair of stilettos and a handful of friends, and watch the sparks fly…

Lieutenant Commander Mick Riley, a member of the fabled SEAL Team Six, can’t pull his eyes from Lacey Owens at the funeral of his mentor. Yet she is the type of woman he wants to avoid – the kind that gets him thinking about settling down, spawning kids, and finding lower-mortality employment.

Lacey has her own reasons for avoiding Mick. Tired of living in the shadow of her financial mogul sister, this real estate agent has tossed ethics aside to succeed in today’s beleaguered housing market. Her no-fail plan to land lucrative listings? Crashing the funerals of wealthy corpses with the hope their heirs will need to sell their homes.

But when their circles of friends collide, Lacey can’t avoid Mick’s rock-hard abs and a smile that melts her into a pool of hot wax. Friendship blossoms and passion simmers… even as she struggles to conceal the unethical business plan that brought him into her life.

This was a free book for me, and I was pleasantly surprised. The story pulled me in, kept me captivated. The only problem I had with it was the author spent so much time developing the “other” characters that it was hard to remember who the book was about. It didn’t really end either but I am guessing its because this is the first in a series.

I HATE it when authors do that, unless you are a fast “releaser” please don’t leave your readers hanging because if they read as much as this girl does, they will forget about your characters.

4 stars from me