Could you sacrifice it all for true love?

That’s kind of a heavy question for a romantic at heart, but lets explore this concept just a bit more. I recently re-watched all of the Star Wars movies, and I couldn’t help but think that most of the trouble was caused by people that thought people should just fall in line with little to no explanation. (Side note if you are training, mentoring someone and they ask you a question it is YOUR JOB to answer them. If not someone else just might and the results could be catastrophic.)

The first movies (1-3) tell the story of a boy who did not grow up in the ways of the Jedi’s but they were pretty sure he would be the one to restore balance to the force. He meets his true love but they were forbidden to marry. Anakin decides to risk it ALL of love, setting into motion events that no one sees coming. (Darth Vader is born, arguably one of the BEST villains ever) He looses everything: Padme, his children, and his grandchildren are even now affected by his decision. My question is what would you risk for true love?

In a day where people fall in and out of love like they change their clothes, giving your all seems like a thing of days past.

For the sake of argument, lets say you met THE ONE. I mean toe curling can’t breathe without them love. Then someone tells you, you can’t be with them, could you walk away and leave them and sacrifice your happiness? I wonder if Anakin knew what would happen, the devastation he would cause, if he would still make the same decision.

I will tell you I consider myself a pretty strong woman, but I do not see myself walking away for any reason other than my son…

 

Motivation: What keeps you going?

For the last two years I have been on a quest to get back to being more healthy. I am a single mom with a very active lil boy and need to be the best I can be for him and me! This is me right before I started this journey. 

I was about 55 lbs overweight, facing  back and wrist surgery. I ate nothing healthy. I knew the time had come to do things differently. So July 4, 2016 I put down Dr. Pepper for good… (I went from drinking 6-8 a day to none and started a healthier diet) I made it a point to NOT cheat the first six months. This is different for everyone, but I knew if I cheated I would not have the willpower to stop.  I was doing no workouts at this point either. December of 2016 I had lost 30 pounds but I still had 25 to go. It was time to get really serious. I hired a trainer.

This route is not for everyone, but I found having to answer to someone and send my measurements to him was a HUGE motivator. (I will find a pic to put here just for yall) January 2017, I had joined his six week program. I had forgotten just how much I LOVED the working out. I loved the feel of my muscles being sore. Six weeks flew by. At the end i had lost three inches and was well on my way to loosing the last of my weight.  I tried to make it on my own, I really did.  I ended up messaging him and asking about longer term programs. Having a trainer keeps me grounded, motivated and focused on what I should be doing.

Around April I met another  fitness junkie. I know what you are thinking, what happened to D? Nothing, I kept him, while I started incorporating MORE stuff from my new friend and the results were amazing! I found that he challenged me to do things that I normally would not have even attempted to do. I have NO quit in me when someone challenges me! (I may have fussed a lil though) In all my years I can say that I loved the way I felt and looked during this time the best. I could not have been more excited about my new muscle definition. (Pics of my baby shoulders) 

October- December 2017 was when I got a lil sideways (so if this happens to you don’t panic you can get it back!) I spent these months BUSY with family holidays and only occasionally did I hit my downstairs gym. I will say that getting back in the groove is the hardest part but now two weeks into January it feels like I haven’t left!

The question I get asked the most is, well what’s your goal? I don’t know if I have just one… I want to reach for the stars and never look back. Size matters not to me, I mainly try to focus on how I feel at the end of the day and can I keep up with my four year old! My goal is too motivate people the way my friends motivate me! My advice to you is NEVER give up. Start small and move from there. Need help? There’s no shame in that either. There are a lot of programs out there that you can do alone or online trainers that will help you, because I know better than most how intimidating “going to a gym” can be!

Past adventures that led to the time of my life

Music! I can NOT live my life without music. There is a song for literally everything no matter what you have going on in your life.  For as long as I can remember I have LOVED to sing. I doesn’t seem to matter what kind of music I am singing either.  (so much so that half the time I don’t even know I am doing it)

When I was 22, I saw an ad in the paper about coming to Nashville and auditioning for a record deal. Ha I mean why not? I was single no kids. SO off I go with my mom, curlers in my hair to sit in a room for 7 hours! Listening to people singing their hearts just waiting for my turn. I have never experienced anything like it. Intimidated. I mean  what did I have that they would want? Excited. The most people I had ever sang in front of was church lol. I sang. This is where I met Mrs. Mary Robbin (but we will talk about her later on) I just KNEW this would change my life forever, and in a way I guess it really did. I won a partial contract and that’s where our story will begin!

My poor momma went with me every other week  to Nashville. Voice lessons with Mary Robbin, she was a bundle of life and laughed at everything. She had an amazing life story but that is for another post.

It took three months of planning to actually get to the recording date. I was given 60 songs to go through to pick out my ten. I mean that should be plenty right? I came up with seven that I wanted, but couldn’t settle on the last three. That’s when Mrs. Mary Robbin brought me three songs her husband had written. I was absolutely in love with them! It took a week of recordings, to get all ten tracks. I will never forget Randy (the best sound man), I swear he never lost his patience with me and believe he could have. During the day, we had photo shoots, video shooting, auditions, and shopping. At night, I would sing till I had nothing left to give Randy. (ha there MAYBE still some of those videos floating around)

Next came getting to sing at the Stardust for a small showcase. I was a lil less scared about this one. Surrounded by my family and several of my friends, man I thought I was already famous. Standing backstage waiting to hear my name, the people cheering, the bright lights,  music starts deep breath, THAT feeling! I sang Sylvia “Nobody”. I was doing it living the dream. Or so I thought…

Working full time at the salon, still going to Nashville every other week and now its Christmas Eve. I was outside with my fellow friends when my past rolled up… lol Can I just take a minute and say everything happens for a reason and if you can’t make it work the first time, chances are that it probably won’t work the next time. It seemed innocent enough he just wanted to wish me Merry Christmas and congrats on the new career. One thing lead to another and we got back together.

Four months Mrs. Mary called to tell me there was a showcase I had been invited to where Mercury Records would be attending. I was beyond excited. Love. Career. Wasn’t my life progressing exactly as it was supposed to? A  week before the “big day” I drive to Mark’s house, where he met me and PROPOSED! SO I was getting married. I went to sing, got a call back for six months.  I could not wait to get back and tell him how it went (see the first red flag is he wasn’t there). He said he was so proud! That night we talked of the future: wedding, house, kids the whole nine yards.But this is where the narrative changed, If I wanted to continue this path that we of course would have to wait to get married (sec red flag) BUT he was quick to tell me supported me whatever I decided.

I made the decision to take a “break” to get married. Now that I am grown I am not sure what my decision would be when presented with the question. What I can say is now no matter how old I get I will always look back on these days with a fondness and say  WHAT A RIDE I HAD…

Contentment…

Are you content?

Someone asked me that the other day, and the answer is I have no idea. I am but I am not. I never stop trying to make myself be better or do better. I think sometime last year forgot how to be myself.

I don’t normally do “resolutions”, mostly because who actually sticks to those. However, I was inspired to jot some goals down. Not long term goal but short term goals, something to keep me focused in a time of chaos.

  • more time with Baby J (park days, outing, exploring, or crafts)
  • blog more
  • travel somewhere and explore something new at least once a month
  • start a travel blog
  • get back to working out (I have slacked since October and I miss it) and of course eating healthy again. This one has already begun
  • read 150-200 books this year (long term obviously… probably lol)
  • start a budget for said books
  • laugh a little more (more time with friends)
  • last but not least I would like to sing again even if it is a karaoke night

Whew you would have thought that short list would not have taken me two days to think about. So I will go back to my original question. Am I content? Yes I think I am BUT I will not keep from pushing myself to be better for me and my son.

Here’s where I think people get little lost. Contentment shouldn’t be confused for settling, no matter what that looks like for you (relationships, jobs, material things) Settling is NO good for anyone! So if you are settling don’t. If you are content, good for you! If you are a little lost like I was don’t panic, start a list of goals.

REMEMBER fortune favors the bold!

Christmas Picture

Nativity….How many of us see this when we think of the Christmas birth? As I sat in church yesterday the preacher said something that I had heard a million time but the Lord opened my eyes to a picture i had yet to think about.

The stable much like the world was dirty, filthy and smelled. (Can you imagine being a NEW mom and thinkin that you were goin to have to deliver a child into all of that disease) God choose to give us His Son in the worst possible conditions because before Christ enters our life we are our worst possible selfs. He reminded me once again that without Him we are nothing but a dirty filthy stable but with Him we are children of The King!

No one is not worthy of the love Jesus has for us! You were so loved that God parted with his son, so that He could come into a filthy world to save someone even as low as me.

What a Christmas picture! So raise your head son and daughters to the king you are worthy of more than what this life has to offer you.

How do you celebrate?

Good Morning! I hope today finds you awake and rested from a great nights sleep. Today we celebrate Veterans Day. What does that mean exactly? Here’s what Wikipedia has to say:

“Veterans Day is an official United States public holiday, observed annually on November 11, that honors military veterans; that is, persons who served in the United States Armed Forces. It coincides with other holidays, including Armistice Day and Remembrance Day, celebrated in other countries that mark the anniversary of the end of World War I; major hostilities of World War I were formally ended at the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month of 1918, when the Armistice with Germany went into effect. The United States previously observed Armistice Day. The U.S. holiday was renamed Veterans Day in 1954.

On November 11, 1919, U.S. President Woodrow Wilson issued a message to his countrymen on the first Armistice Day in which he expressed what he felt the day meant to Americans:

ADDRESS TO FELLOW-COUNTRYMEN
The White House, November 11, 1919.

A year ago today our enemies laid down their arms in accordance with an armistice which rendered them impotent to renew hostilities, and gave to the world an assured opportunity to reconstruct its shattered order and to work out in peace a new and juster set of inter national relations. The soldiers and people of the European Allies had fought and endured for more than four years to uphold the barrier of civilization against the aggressions of armed force. We ourselves had been in the conflict something more than a year and a half. – With splendid forgetfulness of mere personal concerns, we re modeled our industries, concentrated our financial resources, increased our agricultural output, and assembled a great army, so that at the last our power was a decisive factor in the victory. We were able to bring the vast resources, material and moral, of a great and free people to the assistance of our associates in Europe who had suffered and sacrificed without limit in the cause for which we fought. Out of this victory there arose new possibilities of political freedom and economic concert. The war showed us the strength of great nations acting together for high purposes, and the victory of arms foretells the enduring conquests which can be made in peace when nations act justly and in furtherance of the common interests of men. To us in America the reflections of Armistice Day will be filled with – solemn pride in the heroism of those who died in the country’s service, and with gratitude for the victory, both because of the thing from which it has freed us and because of the opportunity it has given America to show her sympathy with peace and justice in the councils of nations. ”

WOW! I love this and not sure I have ever looked up the why behind Veterans Day (other than the obvious) I am a history lover. Combine that with the love of my country and I am in heaven.

When I was a lil girl I can remember sitting on my grandpa’s knee, while he told me stories about how great our country was. He looked at me straight in the eye from as early as 3 years old and said a lot of brave people sacrificed so we could live in this great country so I had two choices I could love it too or I could leave. Now that I am older I understand that what he meant is we as Americans are not perfect by any means, however, I would rather be here than anywhere else.

SO if you woke up in the greatest country in the world Thank a Vet! Without these brave men and women who go into the military we would not be where we are now.