Worship on Palm Sunday

“Worship the feeling or expression of reverence and adoration for God.”

It’s Palm Sunday (quite possibly the happiest Sunday in history) Jesus is welcomed in the city and people are singing His “praises”. They didn’t know Friday was coming… it’s easy to praise when everything is going the way you think that is the plan.

But Friday was fast approaching when Jesus knew that these same people would turn on Him and He would be alone. His own disciples couldn’t stay awake and pray with Him. I know that we have all felt that way lonely and rejected when despair is all we have felt.

Worship is hard. Worship is what comes when praise disappears. Worship is bone deep and emotional. I love Palm Sunday. I mean LOVE this Sunday. For some reason today I just didn’t want to get up get going so when I got to church and the music started I will confess that I was not in a “worship” kind of place. Here’s what I was reminded of. When I raised one hand I could feel vibrations of sound reach to my finger tips. When I raised BOTH arms towards the heavens my whole body becomes a tuning fork reaching for the Presence of Lord! That’s when praise turned into worship!

When praise turns into worship that’s when peace reigns, it’s just you and the Lord. So the next time things go bad and you just want to stop the enemy is scared you are about to see the face of God. Know that his lies are just that, LIES! Sunday is coming! Worship, even when you think you have nothing left.

Having to leave home…

I say this every time, but I don’t want to leave. Have you ever been to a place where your soul just rests and is at peace? That’s how I feel when I cross the state line to Louisiana.

I’m going to share a few pictures with y’all to share the beauty I see.

The Cabin

The Houmas House is always a fav of mine to visit and I highly recommend it. It’s privately owned but they have restored it perfectly.

Stately Oaks with Spanish moss hanging from the branches

ah lets not forget the swamp it’s as beautiful as it’s dangerous

New Orleans! If you can’t find the beauty in this city you are not looking hard enough. From Jackson Square, Cafe Du Monde, River Boats, and The Mississippi River walk.

This particular place has flown a 50ft flag since I was a lil girl and it’s something I look forward to EVERY time I get into town. It is a beacon welcoming me home!

Visiting Mike the Tiger is a MUST! (For one and all and you don’t just have to be a tiger fan)

Downtown Baton Rouge. Old capital building, USS Kidd, and of course my fav view of the Mississippi Bridge (“new one” I still can’t go over the old one without needing to loose my cookies 😂 Seriously though the old bridge is hard core) “Red Stick”

I hope you have smiled or at the very least have experienced a new side of Louisiana that you have never seen before. I wish I could have taken you along the way or could have stopped and taken a picture of everything I found beautiful a long the way.

Louisiana might not ever be my home again but it will always be home in my heart. It will forever be the place where my heart goes to rest and recharge and I am thankful.

The door is closing and you are sad

Life is a funny thing, one minute everything is great then you feel the winds shift. Surely this is not my life’s plan.How do you pick yourself back up when a door closes in your face on your favorite dream?Image result for inspirational memes

How true is this? Would we ever appreciate the light if there was no dark (no disappointments)

For me life has been confusing lately, do I stay, do I go, am I making the right decisions for my lil one… But I have a friend who is going through much worse and my heart hurts for that situation. My prayer is, that although you feel like the door is closing and the dark is settling in, DON’T GIVE UP! I know that it is sometimes hard to find your way back but do not give up because someone is waiting for you. (friend, family loved ones, etc) I will be here for you, always.

In the end, when you see the light you will know that everything was as it was supposed to be. So chin up, Baby Girl, be the storm! If you need help, I got you. lol  I have no trouble being the storm. You are strong, intelligent, talented, beautiful daughter to The King, and I am blessed to call YOU friend!

#betheStorm

Could you sacrifice it all for true love?

That’s kind of a heavy question for a romantic at heart, but lets explore this concept just a bit more. I recently re-watched all of the Star Wars movies, and I couldn’t help but think that most of the trouble was caused by people that thought people should just fall in line with little to no explanation. (Side note if you are training, mentoring someone and they ask you a question it is YOUR JOB to answer them. If not someone else just might and the results could be catastrophic.)

The first movies (1-3) tell the story of a boy who did not grow up in the ways of the Jedi’s but they were pretty sure he would be the one to restore balance to the force. He meets his true love but they were forbidden to marry. Anakin decides to risk it ALL of love, setting into motion events that no one sees coming. (Darth Vader is born, arguably one of the BEST villains ever) He looses everything: Padme, his children, and his grandchildren are even now affected by his decision. My question is what would you risk for true love?

In a day where people fall in and out of love like they change their clothes, giving your all seems like a thing of days past.

For the sake of argument, lets say you met THE ONE. I mean toe curling can’t breathe without them love. Then someone tells you, you can’t be with them, could you walk away and leave them and sacrifice your happiness? I wonder if Anakin knew what would happen, the devastation he would cause, if he would still make the same decision.

I will tell you I consider myself a pretty strong woman, but I do not see myself walking away for any reason other than my son…

 

Past adventures that led to the time of my life

Music! I can NOT live my life without music. There is a song for literally everything no matter what you have going on in your life.  For as long as I can remember I have LOVED to sing. I doesn’t seem to matter what kind of music I am singing either.  (so much so that half the time I don’t even know I am doing it)

When I was 22, I saw an ad in the paper about coming to Nashville and auditioning for a record deal. Ha I mean why not? I was single no kids. SO off I go with my mom, curlers in my hair to sit in a room for 7 hours! Listening to people singing their hearts just waiting for my turn. I have never experienced anything like it. Intimidated. I mean  what did I have that they would want? Excited. The most people I had ever sang in front of was church lol. I sang. This is where I met Mrs. Mary Robbin (but we will talk about her later on) I just KNEW this would change my life forever, and in a way I guess it really did. I won a partial contract and that’s where our story will begin!

My poor momma went with me every other week  to Nashville. Voice lessons with Mary Robbin, she was a bundle of life and laughed at everything. She had an amazing life story but that is for another post.

It took three months of planning to actually get to the recording date. I was given 60 songs to go through to pick out my ten. I mean that should be plenty right? I came up with seven that I wanted, but couldn’t settle on the last three. That’s when Mrs. Mary Robbin brought me three songs her husband had written. I was absolutely in love with them! It took a week of recordings, to get all ten tracks. I will never forget Randy (the best sound man), I swear he never lost his patience with me and believe he could have. During the day, we had photo shoots, video shooting, auditions, and shopping. At night, I would sing till I had nothing left to give Randy. (ha there MAYBE still some of those videos floating around)

Next came getting to sing at the Stardust for a small showcase. I was a lil less scared about this one. Surrounded by my family and several of my friends, man I thought I was already famous. Standing backstage waiting to hear my name, the people cheering, the bright lights,  music starts deep breath, THAT feeling! I sang Sylvia “Nobody”. I was doing it living the dream. Or so I thought…

Working full time at the salon, still going to Nashville every other week and now its Christmas Eve. I was outside with my fellow friends when my past rolled up… lol Can I just take a minute and say everything happens for a reason and if you can’t make it work the first time, chances are that it probably won’t work the next time. It seemed innocent enough he just wanted to wish me Merry Christmas and congrats on the new career. One thing lead to another and we got back together.

Four months Mrs. Mary called to tell me there was a showcase I had been invited to where Mercury Records would be attending. I was beyond excited. Love. Career. Wasn’t my life progressing exactly as it was supposed to? A  week before the “big day” I drive to Mark’s house, where he met me and PROPOSED! SO I was getting married. I went to sing, got a call back for six months.  I could not wait to get back and tell him how it went (see the first red flag is he wasn’t there). He said he was so proud! That night we talked of the future: wedding, house, kids the whole nine yards.But this is where the narrative changed, If I wanted to continue this path that we of course would have to wait to get married (sec red flag) BUT he was quick to tell me supported me whatever I decided.

I made the decision to take a “break” to get married. Now that I am grown I am not sure what my decision would be when presented with the question. What I can say is now no matter how old I get I will always look back on these days with a fondness and say  WHAT A RIDE I HAD…

Relationship Goals

When you were younger did you plan your future? Always know what you wanted to be? What did that look like for you?

I remember as a little girl looking forward to a time when I would meet someone, fall in love and be together forever… (I just knew I was gonna marry Luke Skywalker)

Then I became a teenager and that changed a lil bit 🤣 the only thing that stayed consistent was the thought of being excited to have my very own family a man that loved me a house full of kids and a soccer mom van.

About a month before i got married, I saw a young couple walking in the aisle together heads bent giggling about something. Pushing my buggy past I remember thinking, I can not wait to get to do that with my husband. Before you call me naive for thinking that all couples go to the store together all the time, I know life happens. How amazing though, to be so in love that doing the little stuff together matters.

Now that I’m grown, I am still drawn to watching couples at the store or sitting together at a restaurant. My grandparents sat side by side at the cafe with his arm around her (and my grandpa was the BEST) and when walking together, he made sure he was close for what he called just in case. (Which I can appreciate now because I’m a total klutz)

I guess my point is this, if you are lucky enough to be in love with a great person take time to the little things (go to Walmart, hold their hands, sit in the rockers at Cracker Barrel, laugh like no one is watching) Because let’s face it there a million people who would gladly trade places with you. Treat each day like a gift instead of a chore. Share an adventure, even if it’s just on the front porch!

Contentment…

Are you content?

Someone asked me that the other day, and the answer is I have no idea. I am but I am not. I never stop trying to make myself be better or do better. I think sometime last year forgot how to be myself.

I don’t normally do “resolutions”, mostly because who actually sticks to those. However, I was inspired to jot some goals down. Not long term goal but short term goals, something to keep me focused in a time of chaos.

  • more time with Baby J (park days, outing, exploring, or crafts)
  • blog more
  • travel somewhere and explore something new at least once a month
  • start a travel blog
  • get back to working out (I have slacked since October and I miss it) and of course eating healthy again. This one has already begun
  • read 150-200 books this year (long term obviously… probably lol)
  • start a budget for said books
  • laugh a little more (more time with friends)
  • last but not least I would like to sing again even if it is a karaoke night

Whew you would have thought that short list would not have taken me two days to think about. So I will go back to my original question. Am I content? Yes I think I am BUT I will not keep from pushing myself to be better for me and my son.

Here’s where I think people get little lost. Contentment shouldn’t be confused for settling, no matter what that looks like for you (relationships, jobs, material things) Settling is NO good for anyone! So if you are settling don’t. If you are content, good for you! If you are a little lost like I was don’t panic, start a list of goals.

REMEMBER fortune favors the bold!